I have been on a journey.
As have many of us.
I found that my teeth hurt, it started as a little pain, then got worse and I could not eat a lot of foods. So off to the Dentist I went. I have never had a cavity never had ANY tooth pain. The Dentist confirmed what I thought was true, I had a cavity, I in fact had 9 cavities! I could not believe that I had so many, still can't believe that it was 9! I went home and threw myself on my bed and bitterly cried, feeling sorry for myself and mad at the world and knowing how wrong this was. It felt wrong, how after 25 years of perfectly perfect teeth, they were now falling apart. I cried for a while then signed myself up for the drilling, got to it and got 7 of them filled that next week. I went home depressed that I had lost a part of me, and it was gone forever. It just felt wrong there had to be a better way. The Dentist told me to come back the next day to get the last 2 filled....I never did.
I went home, got on "Google" and started searching for the WHY, why did this happen to me. Why after all these years am I just now getting problems. It was not right in my eyes, what I did to myself after finding a problem did not feel right. So I started searching and looking for an answer. And what I found over the next year, socked me. It has turned my life upside down, and then took me to a place I never thought possible.
As I searched health information, I found things that were unsettling. Corruption, Fraud, Greed, Death, Maya....The world was not how I had imagined. Everything I thought was fact was turning out to be just a nice story I was told to push me to believe the "easy" path, the "checked out" path. The same way most everyone in the world has chosen to take. So I embarked on a mission to change our health, heal ourselves and find the Truth. If it was out there I wanted to find it. After I changed the way we ate, I felt better, I lost baby weight, all pain in my mouth went away (drilling 7 holes in my teeth did not help my tooth pain) And it has been conformed by x-ray that my last two cavities are gone, or where never there to began with. I went to a new Dentist about 6 months later and she said they were not there. As I throw out most of what I believed about health and just about everything I had been taught. I found my self questioning my belief in the Bible and everything I had been taught about religion. If people can lie and deceive so many people now and over the course of history, is anything I learned real?
Was the Bible the Word of God, the same yesterday and today and tomorrow? From what I found it was not, there had been numerous translations of the Bible over the years.
The translations where all a bit different. Then also why were the books that are in the Bible in the Bible? Who picked them? Why did they pick them? And the Questions go on and on. Bottom line is that if the Bible is not the Word of God, THE Truth, I needed to find it.
So then I looked up every different way to get to God, I tried on all the "hats", I followed the Sabbath, I listened to sounds to heal myself, I understood what the Hindus said about the many parts of God, the Buddhists about all being God, reading the Bible in Greek and Hebrew, That our soul is not ours but Gods, I wondered if anything about me was real, or was I on borrowed time here on earth...to the Be still and know that I am God. Everything was the Breath of God, with out it we were all dust. Even believing for a time that God must not exist and all is just by chance. That was by far the darkest week of my life, what is the point of anything if there is no God and no Goal. And no one to care if you lived or died, I have never been more fearful. If it is all chance then there would be no reason if I died, I would just die. But after just a week of feeling that God did not exist, I KNEW that there had to be a God. Just off the fact that you can't live with no purpose. Now the Question still remained, what did God want? Where did he want me to put my efforts. What was his will?
I was still reading a lot about the "new age" ideas, and anything I read that I had never heard of before I "Googled" it. And read about it. Then one day in 2013 I read about the crop circles and how they pointed to the Maitreya in England. So I Googled Maitreya, I got the website Maitreya.org. I read and read and read for a few days, more and more realizing what I had found was indeed the Truth I had been looking so hard for. I realized a few days later that the Maitreya I had found was not the one I was trying to Google. But boy am a glad that Maitreya.org came up first on the web search.
www.maitreya.org
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